When things end up like this, I take a long zen bath.

I turn off the light and light a candle instead…just a few lavender oil drops indulging the hot water…I get all naked…slowly…and then…the water tickles my body…so warm and gently…I get absorbed into thoughts…sometimes the steamy bathroom makes me fall asleep….sometimes I travel in places I’ve never seen…sometimes I imagine another warm body beside me, holding me…kissing me…and then I wake up…I’m alone…but it’s good…it’s good to be me sometimes…